YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY NO!

I ranted about this on Tumblr and I am going to do the same here!

Yo! Ballroom dancers! Ladies! You have the right to say NO to a closed embrace! I didnt know that and an older man (like 50) kept flirting with me and trying and succeeding in doing a closed embrace during the Tango.  I had to leave that class because I didn’t want to face him again. I was a 16/17 when this happened. It happened tonight again. A man got a little too friendly and automatically did the closed embrace. It wasnt just the closed embrace it was something a little farther then that. It was by far uncomfortable and awkward. You know what? I was too polite and kind to say something. SO LET ME TELL YOU THIS ONE MORE TIME! YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY NO! Screw their feelings! Your space is being invaded! Dont take crap from them! Honestly, You have the right to say no! AND MEN! If you want to do a closed embrace with a young girl you just met ASK HER FOR HEAVENS SAKE! ASK! ASK! ASK! DONT assume she wants to do the tango with you in a closed embrace.

Oh no! Its a rant!

I am so pissed! I went to a church activity that was a panel about bullying. Well I have been bullied my whole life and that right there was a bloody trigger for me. All the rage and sadness just flooded over me. I just wanted to get up and walk out. My cousin being a sweet doll she is gave a speech how it gets better after High School. You know what they did? They laughed at her told everyone that it doesn't. Well hoo hoo freakin hoo. IT DOES GET BETTER YOU IGNORANT PANTIE LINER! I can already tell its getting better and I am not out of High School yet! Also! They had bullies talk to us. THEY WERE BULLIES AT OUR AGE! I just don't get how they had bullies talk to a bunch of kids about not bullying. I just. I. HUMANS! AGH! They also should have let some of the kids talk as well. We just kind of sat there and listened. They also come from a different generation of High School. High School is living hell.
So all in all it does get better! Don't give up! If you need help talk to someone!

My ADD Medicine

When I was little I was told I had ADD by my doctor. I never really understood it until I was older. I always looked at it as if it was a part of me and I couldnt do anything about it. I started to love the advantages I had with it and started to accept the disadvantages. I was put on medicine to help me focus and it worked! I loved it! I read a 500 page book the first day on it. I could read, draw, write, ect... My thoughts werent everywhere. I however always assumed the hallucinations of dark figured people was my imagination and not my daytrana medicine. I grew up seeing people walking off building and dissapearing, black cats, black figures standing in the road, little ant shapes moving fast, ect.. ect... I stopped taking it one summer and the hallucinations stopped. I started it again when I moved to Oregon and they started up again. I meet very nice lady at a con whos little brother had the same problem and thats when I started thinking maybe thats happening to me too. I told my doctor and I stopped immediately. We talked to my old doctor who specialized in ADD and he said he  had one other child who would hear things when he was taking it. I wasnt the only one. We looked it up and we found out that 1 out of 100 children or 1 out of 50 children would hear things or see things when they took it. Well I went to my new doctor and told me that if I ever took drugs I would never get out of that state. Good thing I don't do drugs. So if you see or hear things when your taking your ADD medicine stop and tell your doctor! Its not good and its not worth it!

You are worth a million stars!

 I recently found out my cousins bestfriend has been suffering from depression and has in the past tried to commit suicide. I feel horrible and sad for her. I just can't express how much she is loved! So! Here is a message to all of you who has been having a hard time.

You are worth a million stars! Don't you ever forget that! You have so much to live for! You are loved so much!
You could go on a date with your crush, you could go on the perfect date with your crush! If you don't have a crush you can go on the perfect date with a good friend! You can draw your feelings, draw the pope, draw anything! There are friends to be made! You have a list in that beautiful head of yours that says "I must do this" and it consists of things you have always wanted to do. Don't limit yourself! Just make sure its a safe thing to do!
You are loved so much. I cannot say how much you are loved! You are loved so much its hard to believe! If your family doesn't show you love, They really do. It may just be hard to show or they don't say it enough! Your friends love you so much as well! Sometimes your family is another family and that family loves you so much! A lot of people love you. I could go on and say how many people love you but that list is never ending.
If you are thinking  about death and suicide please stop whatever you are doing and reach out for help! Its hard to keep those feelings to yourself! Just go and tell someone you trust! If you can't think of anyone please call a suicide hotline or call your doctor and tell them! There is hope even tho it doesn't feel like it. You just need to reach out a little and ask.
You are loved and cared for. You are worth a million stars. I love you guys!

USA National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

Eliminating Toxic Ties

Okay people. I am going to tell you something oh so daring and oh so scary it may blow you away.
YOU CAN ELIMINATE TOXIC TIES IN YOUR LIFE! I don't care if its family member it can still be toxic just end it and never go back! You are being hurt and its not good or cool. You have every right to say enough is enough. If you are being hurt physically or emotionally and you just don't know how to get out reach out to someone who can help you. You are never alone in this world and you can get help! Don't wait until its too late! I bring this up because my own Grandmother can be very toxic in my life. You know what my mom and I are doing in a couple months? Moving out because its time to go and her treating me like a burden and trash is not okay. I end this with me saying you deserve the world, you can get help, and you can eliminate toxic ties even if they are family.

Welp Welp Welp!

Welp! My mother and I made a deal that I can get three new piercings if I take them out when I go to college. These three new piercings hurt! I went to a piercing parlor and the guy there that was the helper said my vintage dress and shoes were cute. Pretty nice to be complimented by a dude with awesome piercings and tattoos. Anyways! The lady before me showed me her new tongue piercings. I could smell the antiseptic when she opened her mouth. Surely enough there was a cute piercing in her tongue. My mother at this point was about to faint from so many piercings and tattoos but she hanged in there. The nice guy who was going to pierce me sat me down and talked about placing and such. By then I was super nervous. I played it cool but ohmygosh was my hands shaking. I couldn't tell if it was excitement or my nerves making me shake. So he put the needle to my ear and told me to breath in and breath out. I breathed in and then while I was breathing out I could feel pressure and a sharp sting in my ear. He went right through my ear. He then put in the earring. It stung for about a minute but then felt fine. I was like "Oh hey! It doesn't hurt anymore!" and then he explained its going to hurt more because my body was releasing something a rather. He then did the next one and it hurt a little longer then the first one. Then came the nose. He saved this one for last and I understand why. I breathed in and then out and I was almost out of breath when he put the needle in! I whimpered ow and started to tear up in my right eye. It was pure pain. Just pure pain. Nothing else. Just pain. He then put the nose stud in and that was it. He told me I impressed him on how good I did. I felt perfectly fine and ready to go. We payed and we left. Now one day later I was putting my jacket on and RIIIP! There goes my nose ring. The zipper got caught on the stud and it was gone. I panicked and started looking for this impossibly small nose stud. Despite all of my efforts it was gone. My mom being super nice and calm unlike me suggested we go to town and get a nose stud at this one shop. So we did. However that nose stud wasn't an L shaped it was a screw. It was impossible to get in. It hurt so bad that I just stopped trying and when we got home I bent to shape. It slipped in like a charm. That ladies and gents was my piercing story. Tune in next time!

Ladies and Gents!

Welcome! Welcome Ladies and Gents! Take a seat! No not there. Over there. Yes. Good. This pleases me. Since you are all here let me tell you something about myself. I am Big Foot Girl. I am called that because I am friends with Big Foot. We are homies. The end. ps. I got this blog so I can blog with Aubrey.